Miss me yet?

Been incredibly busy. I apologize for my absence, but I promise I have a good reason. Life's been nuts !!!! Wouldn't change a thing about it though. Well, maybe.. nahhh. I trust that Things are exactly as they should be. I'll get around to writing here or transferring entries from my physical journal, PROMISE ! Also, I would love to take requests for entries once again. Or if you happen to be dealing with something and want my opinion, I could do those again too. Let me know yo !

Here are a few photos to signify some of the changes in my life since I last updated you all here.

There's more events to fill you all in on, but I've lost focus.


Goodbye for now !

Goodmorning America.

Here I am again, sitting in a quiet house listening to my thoughts. These thoughts are different than the ones who've been visiting lately. These thoughts are encouraging me to find where I belong. No, not necessarily a physical location, but a place where I am completely comfortable. I was there tonight, where ever "there" is. I got lost in the thought of all the different things going on in this world all at the same time, but in different parts of the world. I thought on how unfortunate it is that while I am here enjoying life, others across seas are hurting. Or even just next door...
They seem to think I don't know, but I do. The screams are loud, though I'm the only one who can hear them. I've always been good at reading others for some reason I am not yet familiar with. It's almost uncomfortable for me at times. Maybe I don't want to know what your heart feels. Maybe I'd rather be clueless so that I wont have to put aside my happiness to find yours. You think I don't know, but I do.
I know that while I'm continuing on this journey of mine, you are standing with your ears and eyes wide open in hopes of getting in on my life. It used to bother me. Walking down the busy streets at night with glowing eyes fixed on me as their bodies stand still. You don't scare me you know... I have a destination awaiting my arrival. There's nothing you can do to delay my arrival.
As I continue worrying about those out of reach as I sit here at peace, the only solution I can come up with is to make more art. I don't know what good that will do right now, but hey... Emerson did it. Speaking of which I have yet to contact.
My thoughts are nuts right now, so I shall end this.
I made a new piece today, and I won't tell you what it means to me. But, I will tell you what inspired me. Those beautiful souls who to us Americans have nothing, but to them, carry the world in their hands.

Let me know whatcha think readers !

-AJT

Robots.

These past couple of weeks or so have been an emotional ride for me. I've been caught up in what I truly believe I deserve, to accepting that it's not always about me. Not even ten percent. That's hard to accept. I do good things for others. I'm always trying to give what I can to make things possible for people who are low on hope. My heart is too big for my size. So, why is it that I'm still fighting for the things I want and care for? Because it's not about me, that's why. And until I fully accept that, I'll be fighting. Everything I want here on this planet, in this world, won't matter after I leave this place. The perfect man, the best friend, the dream job... they wont matter. We are a little more than robots, we have feelings. Those feelings given to us by a higher power to help us form a path, but we are only human. We die. What we do here, results in our future outside of this world. And we pretty much already have a blueprint layed out for us. So, what can we do...