My heart cries for her.

  "Ms. Araceli, do you have kids? I want to adopt so someone can be loved that isn't wanted like me at one time, and I don't want to get married because I want to keep my last name to remember my dad who hung himself, which by the way I saw. Getting married is too complicated anyways. All you do is fight and cry then someone leaves. I don't want to be married." -3rd grader.
 A conversation I had with a child today over some frozen treats is haunting my mind. The stories she openly told me, the things she's seen and experienced, my heart cries over. Why is it that some parents don't realize, or care to realize that their decisions drastically impact their children's lives. This little girl has lost hope at such a young age because of the lifestyle she was born into. This is in no way fair at all. Why?
   I made her promise me that she would promise herself to make good decisions in life. I told her that when she is old enough to make her own decisions, her life will be less "complicated" if that's what she strives for. We talked more about life and how things aren't always so easy, we shared secrets, and some laughs. When we arrived to 36, which is what she refers home to, she so kindly thanked me for listening and walked into 36. She's only a third grader, her life is so unfair.
 

Thank you for loving me.

  It's a huge change going from someone who couldn't commit, to enjoying the thought of yourself in a beautiful white dress looking into the eyes of the man you love. It's so comforting not worrying about him leaving the next day or in a year or two. I know he loves me just as much as I love him, and it's an incredible feeling. Our relationship is amazingly healthy. How did I become so deserving of such a wonderful man? And why is it that I am being told that I have turned him into that amazing man? I did nothing but love him for keeping me so strong since he's been in my life. 

    I cannot imagine a single day without this man in my life. I mean that literally. I cannot picture myself without him, it will just not work in my mind. He is who I am supposed to grow old with, and no one can say anything differently. We will be the old couple holding hands that gives everyone a secret smile in their hearts. I am sure of this, I am sure of our love.

Luis Montero, estoy tan enamorada de ti. 

Tu eres el amor de mi vida.