Determined

 

Before I die I want to knock down your wall.
I want to show you that it's possible. I want to show you that the ending isn't always the same. I want you to see that I was where you are until I found it in me to listen to my heart. I want you to understand. I want you to grow. 
Before I die I want to  build a house in the mountains.
I want to make it with my own hands. I want to wake up to the mountains everyday and feel free. I want to have 4 dogs that can run around carelessly. I want to smell the fresh air. I want to know that no one can see me standing naked on my doorstep. I want to be separated from the world.
Before I die I want to tell his story. 
I want the world to feel your pain through my writing. I want them to know that words are more harmful then they realize. I want the ones that made you feel worthless cry for forgiveness. I want you to know that you aren't the only one. I want you to feel loved, important, wanted, beautiful, human.  I want others that have come close to ending their lives to find hope.
Before I die I want to adopt a kid.
I've always wanted to love a child who wasn't wanted. Give someone a home who didn't know what a home was. I want to make someone feel wanted. Show them that there's hope. After losing mine, I couldn't imagine wanting to let one go.

 I could go on and on, but these are all words. It's truly up to us what we accomplish in life. There's so much I want to do, I believe when the times right, when God believes I'm ready, all my wishes will come true. And what doesn't, was never meant to happen... for me at least. Someone else was able to do what wasn't meant for me to do. As long as it's done though...