Catch me.

Beautiful isn't it? When you find someone who helps you realize that you were fixable after all. Never thought that something so terrifying to my heart can be so comforting at the same time. It's like jumping ten stories into the arms of someone you so deeply care for, though there's a slight chance they wont be able to catch you the thought of being in their arms again makes it easier to fall freely. 

I love when I find things in him that help me solve the puzzle that God created between us. It's like each piece I find, I hear a part of God thinking out loud as he planned our journey together. I heard him laugh a few times when I discovered a few of the pieces, I laughed as well. Will our puzzle ever be complete? believe so. It's if we are satisfied with the completion of our puzzle that we'll never know until we find the last piece.  

I have left my ledge and I hope that you'll catch me, because I'm already falling
 -AJT

Three reasons I cannot sleep.

It's quite funny how life works out. 

You can be stuck in one situation trying to find a way to fix things, 

while God is creating a new road for you.

My thoughts tonight are random. I apologize.

ONE I've been having selfish thoughts lately that I feel guilty about. Thoughts such as: why can't I have things easier, why do I work so hard to support others and don't receive much in return, and more. These may be selfish thoughts, but I believe they're normal thoughts. Maybe knowing what I deserve in return is healthy. Though I don't have what I feel I deserve, I can work harder to get it. 

TWO As many of my readers and friends know, I had been against love for so long. I truthfully believed that I was not lovable. Not because of who I was, but because of my lack of ability to feel. Little did I know God had a huge plan coming my way. I believe I talk too much of it, so I wont mention it. I'm sure you all know what I speak of  and know now the impact it has made on me. Anyways, my whole world is based on love now. I feel for others how I've never before been able to feel. I give, and I give some more out of love. I see the true size of my heart more and more each day. Without love, my heart will fail. Without love, I have no purpose. My whole world is held together with love.

THREE There's a boy. This boy came out of no where. He caught me off guard and now I'm missing him when he's not around. I actually enjoy when he holds my hand. I like the security I feel when I'm in his arms. How did this happen? Perhaps God had created another road I wasn't aware he was creating. I think I'll like this trip.

AJT