Three reasons I cannot sleep.

It's quite funny how life works out. 

You can be stuck in one situation trying to find a way to fix things, 

while God is creating a new road for you.

My thoughts tonight are random. I apologize.

ONE I've been having selfish thoughts lately that I feel guilty about. Thoughts such as: why can't I have things easier, why do I work so hard to support others and don't receive much in return, and more. These may be selfish thoughts, but I believe they're normal thoughts. Maybe knowing what I deserve in return is healthy. Though I don't have what I feel I deserve, I can work harder to get it. 

TWO As many of my readers and friends know, I had been against love for so long. I truthfully believed that I was not lovable. Not because of who I was, but because of my lack of ability to feel. Little did I know God had a huge plan coming my way. I believe I talk too much of it, so I wont mention it. I'm sure you all know what I speak of  and know now the impact it has made on me. Anyways, my whole world is based on love now. I feel for others how I've never before been able to feel. I give, and I give some more out of love. I see the true size of my heart more and more each day. Without love, my heart will fail. Without love, I have no purpose. My whole world is held together with love.

THREE There's a boy. This boy came out of no where. He caught me off guard and now I'm missing him when he's not around. I actually enjoy when he holds my hand. I like the security I feel when I'm in his arms. How did this happen? Perhaps God had created another road I wasn't aware he was creating. I think I'll like this trip.

AJT