Anyone, please.. help.

  I miss a piece of my normality. I miss the piece that allowed me to be capable of loving long term. I'm loving, but from afar. I'm loving, but how long will love last? Is my world shareable ? I just want to find this piece that I miss so much. Until I find this piece, I will continue to hurt others. There's a slight chance I am forever parted from the only piece of normality that I WANT. Anyone... please help. I'm hurting him.