Needed Support

You know that tickling feeling that starts in your neck and sinks to the bottom of your stomach? It usually comes when your feelings are hurt and your heart is aching... I hate this feeling. I hate feeling more comfortable somewhere I'm wanted, but don't belong rather than somewhere I belong, but am not wanted. When will this end? When will I be wanted again where I belong ? Hopefully not when it's too late.. When I'm already gone.

I appreciate the love and SUPPORT I get from him. How is it so obvious to all friends that he is the one for me and this is the happiest I've ever been, but to the ones who's opinions matter most, they can't see it enough to support our love on this new level. Is it that they don't want to see it? As if seeing it meant letting go ? I need answers, comfort, love, prayer, assistance, but most of all I need support. And I need it from THEM.

Forbidden Comfort.

I always miss my old friends, lifestyle, and who I was back then, that's nothing new. I've realized though, that it's not until for a minute, or thousands of them, that I lose all connection with the feeling or memory I molded of what's left that I start to go insane. I lose control of my thoughts, and I search and search for any way to connect again to "home" so that I can breathe again. They say home is where the heart is, but why is home so dangerous for me?

Big step. Right direction ?

Today, I made one of the biggest decisions I've ever made. I couldn't be any more excited.

Perfectly Imperfect Relationship

Love isn't going to be perfect at all times. Actually, love is going to be perfectly imperfect always. The two of you are going to disagree with each other here and there and feelings are going to be hurt sometimes. What matters is how the two of you come together to fix things. It's impossible to move past a situation if the want to talk things out to better understand each other isn't mutual. Its the way you two handle each situation that allows your love to grow.

AJT

Life Sentence

Hurt shouldn't pile up like this inside of someone. No one good deserves to suffocate beneath pain on top of pain. You should have time to breathe, time to scream it all out until it no longer exists. Unfortunately some of us are stuck fighting for the end of this pain. No one will ever understand, and that's okay. No one good would ever wish this kind of hurt on anyone. They say talking helps, but I'm not sure how annoying people with your problems they'd never be able to fix anyways is helpful. Stay strong my people, stay strong..