Let me teach you.

With no one to vent to, I rely on these keys to tell my story.

Why is it that these past two weeks I've been so emotional? Is it because I've been pushed over edge and I'm out of supplies to cover these wounds still left open? I feel as if all these eyes are watching me with confusion as I finally break. I was as strong as I could be for a great amount of time. Can I not be weak in this moment so that I can call on my Father for support? I'm human. I need to feel. I need to hurt. I need to fall. I'm not falling because I've been hurt, I'm falling because I've carried more weight than I should have been allowed to, but I had to. I had to in order to keep those that I so dearly care about happy. Happy... such a powerful gift to feel. I know that I am happy. Though at times it's hard to tell hiding behind a tired soul, it still runs through my body. I feel it in the simplest of times. Like when you smile at me. Or when I feel the melody in my heart. It's still there, there's no need to try and convince myself to believe.


When even the warmest time of the year feels cold, please believe that you can call on me. I'll teach you the ways of the trees and the flowers. I'll translate the language that the moon speaks. I'll show you how the ducks love and how the clouds tell a story. Trust me, there's more than just the obvious that can help you believe. I'll teach you to breathe though the hideous ways of man. Let's share a beer by the water and bet on how many fish are actually in the sea. Though we'll never really know, we can dream. I am new to you and you to me, but I can tell that our minds have the potential to be as one. Maybe our hearts. Forget that opinions even exist and lets get high off of each others company. Just for right now, run with me. And if it feels right we can run into eternity. I was where you are now. Hanging onto the very same ledge with barely any strength left to hold on. I had to learn that it's easier to just let go. Let me teach you to flow with the wind and trust that where it lands you is where your next journey is meant to start. And when your coldest nights turn warm once again, I will leave you be... unless you ask me to stay.


This day should have been my first to celebrate with my little one. Someday my love, we'll be reunited in His kingdom.